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Someone was asking me if I still draw

Feb. 10th, 2014 | 03:33 pm

gamzeesparks portrait
(The answer is yes)

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Dec. 22nd, 2013 | 12:39 pm

Since I last updated I've moved a few times, got a job, lost a job, and I've started school.
I'm entering my second semester now, I'm a culinary arts major.
I mostly only look at a couple of peoples pages on here, and C_S, sorry I've been silent

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Custom Soap Raffle

Aug. 12th, 2011 | 10:36 pm


:D one of my favorite soap makers is having a raffle! Gotta hurry if you want in!

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Aug. 20th, 2010 | 02:03 pm
mood: restlessrestless

Too many ideas clashing in my head all at once, and I'm still trying to wake up and shake this headache. The joints are being decent enough today, pain level is tolerable. Already started on cleaning chores, and I gotta do some laundry, but I want to write before my muse escapes, or draw the things I see in my mind's eye (actually I want to paint, I want to paint sooo much, big huge beautiful canvases, and medium sized clayboards and feathers... dragons soaring through a sunset sky, depictions of heaven and hell in abstract multimedia, faerie creatures and totem animals.. a story beckons me to write it, a world cries to me to flesh it out, a doll sits half finished, waiting on me to sew together those last few pieces to make him whole. And I sit, and wait drowsily for headache pills to kick in, and lunch to be done, wishing wishing for the mundane to fall away so I can chase the dreamscapes of my waking mind.

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Jul. 12th, 2010 | 04:22 am

Just wanted to put down my thoughts somewhere.
I just read a really interesting article ( http://www.infocirc.org/rollston.htm ) that got me thinking. Its a thought pattern I've walked before many times. Questions about who I am, what I am, how I'm different.
Whats wrong with me.
I donno.
Those closest to me know I'm not very interested in sex. Despite being an erotica artist for years, I find myself in a position of not being able to understand the pro-suit of sex. Its not really one of my driving functions.
Of course I'm pretty sure that this is due to the fact that my hormones are utterly screwed up. Its bad enough that if I go off my birth control I start thinking that anyone who actually wants sex is skeevy and scary and not normal.
Even with the hormone treatments I have to shave every day, I've put on weight, the hormones are the only thing keeping my monthly regular.
I know I probably won't ever be able to have kids- and whatever I think about sex... I really do want children.
Then I get to thinking.. well how long have my hormones been screwed up?
I liked boys toys. I'm a gamer girl, I would rather be hiking, whittling, climbing trees, racing go-karts when I was little.
On the other hand I -do- like to cook, and I like my dolls too, even if half of them are action figures and robots.
..And I'm bi. Boys and girls both, not just one.. and my body definitely -looks- female. I couldn't look like a boy if I tried.
I've day dreamed and drempt at night about being a boy on more than one occasion..
But I feel more or less complete.. or more than that..
That what gender I am doesn't really matter at all to me, I'm just me.
Being just me seems just.. somewhat more abnormal than not.

..anyhow, thanks for listening to me ramble.

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Been a while

Jun. 12th, 2010 | 12:16 am

>.>; I forget to post over here.

Mostly I use LJ to keep up with other people and post on -their- journals and things, I keep forgetting people might want to hear I'm y'know, not dead, as a whole. Heh.

I do post on Facebook a lot, er. Is there a program for cross posting my facebook posts to LJ, maybe?

Updates about me since the last time I posted:

Me and my husband are living with my mother. Hes been out of work for a year and a half now, we have a room to ourselves and most of our stuff is living on the porch.

The old computer finally gave up the ghost, it got hit by lightening and was never quite the same again afterwards. My new machine is ~beautiful~. Saving up for a nice monitor now. I named the new computer Teletran1

I make money through commissions and house cleaning right now, been keeping my eye out for other work.

My health continues to deteriorate. If I walk for very long I need my cane now, and I can no longer do babysitting jobs because the hypoglycemia has gotten bad enough I don't feel I can be trusted with them- I pass out. This is also why I don't drive.

I'm learning to pace myself with my art so I can get more even activity there, instead of bursts of activity followed by a week of being in too much pain to do anything.

We're making lots of jelly and preserves, and we have a garden here.

One of my best friends is coming to live with us soon. As soon as anyone has a job (that pays better than mine) we're moving into a place of our own with him <3

I'm going to SteamFest, this was my birthday present, I'm really excited about it.

This is the first year since highschool that I not only didn't work at the RenFair, I didn't even go. My health again.

So yeah. Thats about everything.
I'll try to be more communicative >.>;

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Feb. 14th, 2010 | 01:53 pm

Happy Valentine's Day to al my friends :)

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Jun. 3rd, 2009 | 11:10 am

What I wish I was getting for my birthday, in light of events:


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Apr. 30th, 2009 | 01:49 pm

The bladder in my wine skin burst, does -anyone- know where I can get a replacement for cheap? Google has failed me on even the replacement part.

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Roomies needed

Feb. 7th, 2009 | 01:54 pm

Alrighty all you folks in internet land who like us:

We're looking for a room mate. We live in the Rome/Cartersville (Kingston) area of GA
Rent'd be $400, including Water, Electricity, TV and Internet (you're on your own with the phone)
If we can't find a room mate we are going to lose the house :/.
The bedroom offered is fully furnished right now with a bed and dressers and a table (though we'll have to move some boxes out for you) or we can take all that stuff out so you can put your things in.

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